wow has it been this long?

Much has happened.

I am in a tough period right now. I am feeling like a total failure in several areas. I really do not want to go into details right now but just to say it is hard.

Decisions i have to make. Hard stuff. I don't like it. I have been taking the time to re-evaluate my life as i do during this time of the year. I hate this stuff.

I can say - God is good and he is always there. thru good and bad, he is there.

I can also say i am finally on a weight loss program that is good for me. I have a personal trainer who kicks my butt 3 times a week. Why is that so hard? lol.

Missing my daughter. that has to be the biggest thing on my mind these days. i need some time away to connect with her and just be.

More later, i promise i will be alittle more faithful to the blog. much is clouding my mind right now. Gotta get a hold of it.

Carter