Tuesday, December 28, 2004

it is done.

It is Tuesday. and all is calm. I am waiting to head over to my nephews house. I am on uncle duty today. Big shopping trip planned -- thank you Jesus I don't have to do that. Cary's are great and it will be alot of fun.

I have been thinking about the events of the past week with the holidays and the environmental disaster. I cannot believe the amount of damage. Pray for them.

Car is in the shop. AARRRGGGHHH!. Remember the days when things cost in the "tens" unit? Now things cost in the "hundreds" unit. Thank God for the Johnsons who have continually stepped up in my life. Jeff is letting me use his truck and that is great for me.

Well, ta ta for now.

Unemployed and no car.

Saturday, December 25, 2004

Merry Christmas!

I await the arrival of the Boo! I have not spoke to her today yet but i can almost predict what happened this morning. I am sure her mom is loving every minute of it.

Events of the day: well, after gift giving we will have lunch and goof around for the afternoon. alittle Playstation action and then it is off to Becca's aunts and uncle (miss you Furr's) for Christmas dinner. It will be an interesting dinner. It always is. Lots of people; the Cary boys being the Cary boys. Entertainment, entertainment, entertainment. Then we will come home; somehow recoop from the day and rest for the evening.

All that to say: May prayer is that Christ stays in Christmas and that you are all having a great one!

With that said,

Becca's Dad and Tigger's owner

Friday, December 24, 2004

Christmas Eve

what are you doing tonight? i hope you are spending well desired downtime with your families and friends.

i am finalizing details for tomorrow. finish wrapping up gifts. Watch the cat try to open them.

Becca arrives tomorrow at 11:00 am. after a week of her mom out of town, she was ready to see her again. ah a mother/daughter relationship. refreshing.

Can i be honest here? at the risk of being considered a Scrooge, i really hate this time of the year. And there is a multitude of reasons. One is that the holiday is more about the gift giving than anything. I honestly wish i would hibernate from yesterday until new years. it has not always been that way. There was the juggle of in law family and biological family and our own Christmas. Every family struggles with it. i am not sure the solution.

Anyway, enough. I hope that your Christmas celebrations are awesome! Filled with great time with family, friends and the Lord.


Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Let it snow; let it snow; let it snow

Hey. I woke up this morning to a gentle snow storm going on. The woods around my place are beautiful when it snows. As I have said before, I am just thankful that it held off until after 12/15.

I went shopping yesterday. Aarrghh! That was an experience. Becca went to a friend's house so i took the time to shop. I try not to "cop" an attitude this time of the year. But it is easy to do. Huge amounts of money being spent. More time running around looking for the "right" gifts. Then there are the people EVERYWHERE. Some are in the same boat i am. Running around looking for the right gifts. Others have had enough and are just trying to get home and a little rude in the process. Needless to say, why do we celebrate Christmas again?

Making sure Christ stays in Christmas. That is a challenge. I mentioned this eariler but I am glad Becca is hanging out. She helps the mode.

Speaking of the Boo, she is trying to train her cat to do tricks. She is convinced he is making progress. She is trying to get him to come when called and sit in front of her. For this he gets a treat. I am not sure who is training who. More on that later.

Becca's mom is out on a little vacation in mucho warm weather. I only bring this up for two reasons. I am envious. And 2, we tried calling internationally to their resort they are staying at. ok. On top of all this Christmas stuff, I now have to figure out how to call internationally. That is not a big -- if you have all the digits to the phone number. It seems that 3 digits were omitted from the phone number we received. That is ok. I am resourceful right? I jump on the net; looking up the resort; write down the number. YEAH! ready to go. So I call. I get a voice mail system in spanish. Now, if I have Ross or Adam Knoll here that would not be a problem. But they were unavailable. At the end of the list, a message -- for english, press 10. YEAH. Then I had to listen to the list again -- in english. Finally, i get to a person. Only, there is no press 10 option. She was trying to be so helpful but we could not connect. So, after all that -- did not talk to mom and i have a larger phone bill.

Wow. am I really whining?

Anyway, gotta go make some breakfast. Bacon, "dripping" eggs, toast, and potatoes.

Enjoy the season.

Thursday, December 16, 2004

Last shift

It was a bitter sweet moment as I shut and locked the tower door yesterday. After running around cleaning and setting everything for winter, i cleaned out my locker for the next three months. In addition, I signed up for unemployment. that is fun.

well nothing new to report. Christmas shopping yet to do. Argh!

I am looking forward to seeing Becca again. She always has a refreshing look on the Christmas holiday. In fact, her attitude helps put me in the mood for Christmas.

Gotta run,

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

One more shift down.

***This blog has been edited, because i may have stepped over the line. to that individual i apologize.

Hey. Tomorrow the bridge operation closes for the season. So the closed down process has started. I will be the last one in the tower. So i get the finish the process tomorrow.

Man, did we have a great life group Sunday evening. We all gave good input. Anyway, we really discussed some great issues. It was good.

Not that i am not looking forward to the 19th, the gathering on the 26th is going to be good. Don't miss it!

All is good. Christmas shopping yet to do. Becca is dropping all kinds of hints. I am excited because I will be having her for an extended time over the next couple weeks. Becca's mom and step dad are headed out of town on a trip and i get the daughter. That is cool. Lots of one on one time.

Well, more later.

Saturday, December 11, 2004


Well, once again changes. I feel like God is moving right now. Not sure what that means but...

I can tell you this. Last night was my last night shift before the 3 month "vacation". I am happy about that. I am thankful for the job but hate those late nights. I have two more day shifts until the bridge close for the season.

I have made some other decisions as well. I am done wrestling. Enough said.

Becca comes back tonight from the advance or retreat or that Moto thing. I am sure she is going to be tired. But i am excited to talk with about it.

Anyway, I need to make a few rounds before the end of my shift.


Thursday, December 09, 2004


Wisdom from Hank Hill - "that is the great thing about dying -- either you do or don't."

This weekend Becca goes to her first youth sponsed overnight event -- which we call an advance not a retreat. Sometimes i think i need a glossary to keep up. I am so excited for her. But this is one of many moments where i realize that she is growing up. I was speaking with her mom the other day and we were just amazed how many corners she has rounded in the last year. We are so blessed.

Our series is Christmas brings .... hope, family, new life, and worship. One of the pieces i am most excited about is the "family stories". Last week we heard an awesome story of hope. I love to hear stories like that. Check out recording online at iamwatermark.com. Well, don't look yet as I have not uploaded it. This week we are going to hear a story of family. It will be great too.

I am struggling with this scarcity issue. It has haunted me since hearing Thompson talk about it and Deur following up. It is not so much that they talked about it -- as i have been struggling with it for a long time. After all, i earned it. I should be able to decided how it is spent. Right? Unfortunately, that is not God's plan. We are suppose to be money managers for him. that's how it works.

You know i am really not sure how this plays out only it is something i am working thru. Notice I did not say wrestling with -- don't want to give you the wrong idea.

That's it for now.

From the tower,

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

the countdown is on!

it is true. the bridge closes for 3 months during the year. From 12/15 - 3/15, the bridge operation is down. This means a "3 month" "vacation" for me. Unemployment here I come.

Becca is down for the count. She has some sort of virus. I received the call yesterday morning. I called Becca's mom for a 2nd opinion. Two phone calls later I was headed for the doctor. This is not one of Becca's favorite things to do. This is how I know Becca i serious about illness. I think she would almost do anything else except the doctor. Anyway, she is home with dr. mom today and is doing ok.

I am thinking of taking some classes during the "vacation". We will see if finances permit. I would like to have something under my belt for the DBMD review coming up in about 5 months.

The Christmas holiday is coming up. Ready? I am not. Becca and I will be setting up our tree this weekend. that is always fun. After the 15th, i will probaly go see my folks. That will be interesting.

Well, i am still feeling the effects of the Roach being gone. Viva Roach!

You are the wind beneath my wings,

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

i'm a lumberjack and i'm ok.

well not really. i like to burn wood.

Last night was great. I had 3 giggling, screaming 10 year old girls in my car last night. It is cool. I am proud of Becca for inviting people to MOTO. You know I have often said Becca has her mom's looks and dad's personality. I am discovering that God is developing in her a unique person. It is awesome to see it unfold. When I picked them up, i noticed Becca was not looking good. Apparently, there was some activities that involved eating onions and whip cream. Need i say more.

I have some close friends who are really struggling right now. The wife's dad died recently and this is the first holiday. I am going there tonight to hang out with them. I really think they are close to coming to a gathering; which will be cool. They are catholic and have never been to another church other than a catholic church. I am wondering what kind of shock will happen when they do come. I have another friend who is struggling with some medical stuff. And another family who is in transition with children going to college and family stuff.

I am always amazed how God brings people in and out of our lives. He allows us to be his tools and instruments. I am amazed how he pursues us and wants to be in relationship with us.

When I was in sales, i can remember juggling multiple clients -- up to 50 or 60 -- and how out of control i felt. I would us Outlook to keep track of calls and appointments emails yada yada. I can remember thinking how am I ever going to get control. There is some truth there. I am not sure if i am done digging that out.

Sidebar--Fox has some of the dumbest shows and commericals i have ever seen. Right now in the tower there is not much to do. So there is a TV. The only station that comes in clear is Fox. AARRGGHGHHH!

I do think we should do more 80's music.


the blog sphere is growing

I have added two other bloggers to the sphere.

The Smith family is near and dear to me and my daughter. They live in the land of the Dutch and they are one of the coolest families around. Greg is a great source of insight for me and I really appreciate his relationship with the Lord, his wife, his family and others. Read on!

Mrs. Roach is also added. Judy is married to the Roach and that would be enough to merit blog space. She has a heart of gold and is growing as a believer, new bride and in ministry. She and Roach are moving soon back to Canada and will be missed here in West Michigan. Enjoy.


Saturday, November 27, 2004

Happy Thanksgiving Weekend!

Hi all

sorry to all of you who have faithfully checked my blog. I will certainly be more attentive. Gooch once told me, (as the Blog-Master) if you do not blog a few times a week....it is not worth it. Now I am not sure I subscribe to that but I will be more intentional about it.

Wow! what a great couple of weeks. Here we go .... the week and 1/2 in review:

MOTO: Becca is loving Moto. I cannot tell you how much she is loving it. I cannot put a finger on it. Whether it is something she is doing herself or what. But she sure loves it. Becca has been a force inviting people. I am afraid I am going to need reinforcements to get all the kids she is inviting. THAT IS A GREAT PROBLEM TO HAVE. It is humbling in a way. She is being the church and I love it. I had mentioned at Core Focus last week that Becca's mom and I have had some conversation about it. That is cool too. Sarah (Becca's mom) is very supportive. In fact, there is a Moto get together that Sarah has already signed up Becca for and Becca is geeked! I love my family and the communication we enjoy. It saddens periodically that the marriage did not survive; but I am glad that we have made the best of it. Sidebar: again, i have a great set of in-laws; which I hugely appreciate. You know who you are and I love you! I feel closer to them than my own family.

CORE FOCUS: Speaking of Core focus, we had a going away/appreciation time for Roach and Mrs. Roach. Man, it was so cool to see the body surround these two servants and love them. Some funny some serious but all awesome. An image that will be in my mind again has to do with the kids. At one point, Deur had invited all the kids to come up and say something to the DeRoches. Wow. Little children come unto me....power. But one moment will be there forever. Right at the end of the "kid time", Ryder Smith decided to give Roach a hug. I started to get emotional on a few levels. Ryder not afraid to love and express love. His heart shown in the act. Roach receiving it. The size difference. It was a cool moment. It makes me think of how much God loves us and how really small we must be. And yet, he pursues us. wow. So to Jason and Judy, I am on your team. I am praying for you and know God will continue to bless you and all you do.

Well i need to finish this later.

Until then,

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

False Alarm

i made a note about an email i received. no worries.

what a nasty day here in west michigan.

Good day programming yesterday. we have some challenges ahead with the holidays coming up.

Thats all for now.

Sunday, November 14, 2004

the week in review

the week was good on some fronts.

Programming meeting: i love the new Watermark offices. Thank you, Jesus. Gooch gave me the tour last week. The important stuff - pop, water and snacks. Heh heh heh. Really though, the offices are really nice. It is a quiet environment to do what we do.

Parent/teacher conferences. Yes, the 1st marking period is over. And it is time to meet with the teacher. Another great conversation. Becca is doing well in school and is enjoying herself as well. I pray that we can keep that drive alive in her.

Accountibility - yes, this was a week to get together with Gooch and Jeff. We end up wrestling with each other. And that is always good. We had an addition this week. A friend who is struggling with some things. God proves himself so real in those times. We talked and prayed. It was awesome.

Bible triad - hey, N8 & Jay opened there bible triad up and invited me. We talked about what it would look like and that was cool. We read a chapter of the bible and make notes. Then we get together weekly to discuss. It should be great. In addition, we met at a restuarant in Spring Lake. A whole group of Spring Lake Wesleyan people were there. It was good to laugh for a minute with them and reconnect.

Saturday a great day with Becca. She is cool to hang with. I am enjoying the relationship she and I have. I thank God for it.

Well, it is Sunday. I have worked all night and I am playing this morning. I will go home; take a shower and try to do my best. Should be interesting.

I found out some disturbing information this morning. I need prayer on. It came thru in an email and I need to process it thru - with God's help. Pray for me.


Wednesday, November 10, 2004

it has been a week

since my last blog. And even longer since something of substance.

I have commented earlier that I have been struggling. I have a thing about authority. I have had it for a long time and have learned to deal with it. Therefore, when i feel like God is moving, it usually causes me to rebel. That is my issue. Now it does not happen often; but when it does it takes me a little time to work it out.

What I am discovering is on multiple levels. How important prayer is. How important worship is. How important obedience is. How important serving is. I was in GR last night for a meeting and i was reminded again that there are homeless people in the world. Today, I was watching a commercial bringing attention to the fact that this next week is national homeless week. It makes me ashamed that we need a national campaign to draw attention to the homeless.

As I listened to Thompson last week and Deur this week, i am reminded of the passion for the lost. Deur was right on this week. Being the church is much more than a slogan. it has to be imbedded in our lives. I want to be moved to change.

On the path,

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

one more added

as i live and breathe, one more blogger added. only this time in the female gender - Kathy Johnson.

Kathy is a dedicate wife, mom and nurse and always shows a heart of compassion.

rock on, kj

Four more years!

Well, the nation speaks and Kerry calls "W". I hope all of you reading this took the time to vote. It is a honor to do so.

It was a beautiful day in West Michigan. I am not sure how many more we will have before snow flies. Needless to say, i spoke to the Boo today and she is feeling better. I am happy about that. It disturbs me greatly when she is ill. Helpless....

Jeff and I hung out last night. We agreed that God is stretching me right now. Let me explain. I have had a "sucky" attitude lately. I was telling my accountibility homies (jeff & gooch) that I have been mad at the world lately. It is my nature to rebel. Anyway, I know God is breaking me for a reason. To listen and obey is a tough thing for me.

It will be good to see Deur again. I miss the guy. (in a heterosexual way). God is showing Steve some great things. I cannot wait. If fact, we have rearranged some things for Sunday in anticipation.

Can't wait.

bridge operator.

Monday, November 01, 2004

Halloween is over

Too much left over candy. Then Thanksgiving is right around the corner. I hate the holidays.

I listened to Steve Thompson's message on Scarcity this weekend. Some awesome stuff there. We upload all of our messages to www.iamwatermark.com. It is great to hear the sermon so quickly.

Well, I am home today. Becca has strep (?) throat. Actually, this was a crummy weekend. Trick or treating was Saturday evening. About halfway thru, the wind kicked up and it started raining. Which is probably why Becca is sick. We went back to the Cary's to divide and conquer the candy. Sorted and examined and traded with the other kids. Becca still hasn't eaten much candy.

So, the gathering was out of the picture. And so was life group.

This morning was spent at the doctor's office and getting a precription. I wish I would have taken stock out in the "pink" drug. I would be rich today.

So I am caring for my daughter today. I like it even though I do not feel like I am getting anything done.

That's all for now.


Wednesday, October 27, 2004

new blogger

we will try this again. Dave T. is a good friend who has been on the journey for a while. Great head on his shoulders, awesome sense of humor and wonderful wife and daughter!


Sunday, October 24, 2004

thoughts from the week

What a great gathering today.

Batman came to visit. We did our promo for the next sermon series. And Nate did a superior job. I am most pleased that there are even amounts of people in each gathering. I like it.

Core focus is going on. I did not go. I am a slacker. So I spent time with the Boo and carved some pumpkins.

I never see anyone I know at Meijers; until tonight. I saw Wade and Michelle & their new baby. It seems like alot of couples I know right is having children. Makes me think, I know what everyone was doing march of 2004.

Anyway, I have been thinking about this whole post modern time. I had a conversation about this with a friend of mine last week and he shed some light on it. We were bantering about the whole movement. He said something like we can never forget where we come from.

Which made me think about some things. I think as post modern christians we also get arrogant about what we are doing. We are so quick to comment about how the church is not doing things "right". How they do not know what they are doing. Blah blah blah.

I have issues with the organized church. But please do not mistake those issues. The church has been seeing people come to know Christ for a long time. And probably will continue to see people come to know Christ. Just because we drink flavored coffees and dress down at church, does not mean we are any better. I have been a believer for 21 years. In that period of time, I have seen swings in the church. For example, the rise and fall of choirs in youth ministry, the promise keepers movement, Willow Creek and the seek driven model just to name a couple. With each swing, leaders have said this is the "right" way. And yet, there is a new "way" every time we turn around.

I know that the gospel is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. I think the way we present it was be relevant to the society at hand. In addition, I think we cannot point fingers and create dissention because we think we are "doing it right".

I am not sure where I am going in this thought. It has been on my heart and thought I need to start working it out.

More later

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Do it; DO IT

Famous quote from Ben Stiller.

When you get a chance, check out quiet rider's latest blog. He is speaking from the heart and has something stirring there!

I am reminded of a quote I hear one of our leaders at Watermark FREQUENTLY say, "They just don't get it." I really want to spend the rest of my life trying to figure out what that means. I want to make a life commitment to "getting it" on multiple levels. Prayer, worship, serving, reading, communicating, studying.....I am not sure if I will ever really get it.

Parent teacher conferences coming it. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? Oh my goodness....Time is flying.

that's all for now.

From the bridge,

Sunday, October 17, 2004

2 gatherings day

WOW. What an awesome time today. We start 2 gatherings today. Very pleased with the turn out. It was great. Roach did a great job; the band sounded great; (it was good to see the rhythm master back in action-after the new baby and all); even though Deurty stuggled all week - it paid off!

Most of all, I had a great day with Becca. She was all geeked because she, her mom and stepdad carved pumpkins this weekend. Her mom found these really cool templates to carve by. So today, we did carmelled apples. That was fun. The Thompsons were the benefactors of that. It brought great joy to Becca to bring those over to their house.

Speaking of life groups, Gooch's parents were in from the east side. I am enjoying getting to know them. They are rich with stories. I cannot wait to hear more "Gooch" related stories. Anyway, we played Rook with them and the Johnsons. That was fun. Great time of conversation and food.

I am thinking about dedicating my new home. It is a concern of mine to really pray over the place where Becca and I will hang out hat.

Well, tomorrow is another day and an exciting week ahead.


Friday, October 15, 2004


It was busy yesterday.

Morning: Went to Holland to meet with a gentlemen to discuss some work. I missed a group meeting w/N8 and Jayz. Suck. I received some "positive" feedback over that.

Lunch: D&W and Jeff Johnson. Beat into the floor. Felt great.

Afternoon: Worked at home. boxes and stuff. But the cable is hooked up. No phone yet which sucks.

Dinner: Nothing special there.

evening: 1st accountibility group meeting at my house - Gooch and Jeff. I live for these conversations. We really dig into it. It is great to connect with these guys, hear whats going on and pray.

Last night: work.

That was a packed day. Now I am headed into GH to take care of business.

Out for a while

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

the move is nearly complete

WOW. what a weekend...

I finished making the necessary phone calls to get all things set up at our new duplex. It seems as if it is never ending. But it is coming to a close.

Have I mentioned how much I hate technical difficulties? Yesterday was a great gathering except for technical things that went haywire. Three things in particular. 1. our first flash did not work. Don't know why but the colors were all inverted so you could not see what was happening. 2. DVD shut down. We shut one of the DVD's off too soon. AARRGGHH! and 3. The last video was turned on too soon. That was a calling error on my part. AAHHHH!!!! I hate it. I hate because it always causes people to get ripped out worship. As one of the guys said yesterday - the errors made it feel like we were stuttering along. We will get better.

Becca had a great time at Moto last night. Moto is our 5th - 8th grade student ministry. Let me tell you how old it makes me feel.

Well, I need to get back to work.

From the tower looking high over the Grand River,

Monday, October 11, 2004

Programming day

Well, another great day! We have such a great programming team. IT is always great to hear what they are thinking! We had several missing today. You know who you are....we missing you!!!

We had a great gathering yesterday. Other than a couple technical issues, we had a great birthday party.

Did I mention I love my life group? My life group is great. I got in trouble last night for not incorporating them into my move. Now, let me say. I really appreciate that. I should have relied on them more. Which just brings an interesting point. I do have a problem with that. I can respond to people. But asking for help and relying on people is very difficult for me. I will have to get back to you on that. But, they are great because they support and love and pray and help and and and....to them I say thank you for not giving up on me!

Tonight, my daughter, Becca, is joining Moto. Moto is our church's 5th thru 8th grade student ministry. I had great conversation about this with Becca's mom. She is so supportive of this and so am I. Sarah and I have been committed to several things. School, church, extra curricular activities. We discuss them and evaluate them. This has made for a well rounded experience for Becca. We are also committed to family time.

Communciation is the key. Putting the child's interest ahead of our own. It has been hard work. It should be hard work to raise a family.

Anyway, gotta go get the Boo. She needs to get her homework done before she can go.

Becca's dad

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

new bloggers added

and another ones down and anothers ones down and another one bites the dust.

I met Dave Drury at SLWC in Spring Lake - the connections guy. I have enjoyed the limited access I have had with him and I just found out he is a blogger.

And a new website added - Vinmark Productions!


big bridge inspection

Tomorrow. I have not been thru one but I am on all day tomorrow, so I will get to experience one. Until then, all must be ship shape. I am afraid to even pass gas up here right now. Anyway, we will be hiding the trolls until everyone is gone.

Were you at the gathering last weekend? Man, I really enoyed it. I am looking forward to the next one. I think that is a reoccuring pattern. I really enjoy being there.

And speaking of enjoying, I spent some time this weekend with Dr. and Mrs. Mojito. I know this will shock you but there was fire, hotdogs, smores and fireworks involved. We had great conversation catching up. The Dr. has been mentoring me with some "ministerial" stuff in my life. And they live it out. Mrs. Mojito always makes Becca and I feel loved and accepted. Enough sucking up to them. Anyway - a little shout out to dr. & mrs. mojito!

Well, that's what's new! Oh wait, i have friend who is close to family that needs some special prayer support. You see, family has a child who recently had a bad accident involving a horse. Lots of left out details I realize, but please pray for the child and family.

Ta ta for now,
the moving man

Saturday, October 02, 2004

Dave Matthews Band rocks

What can i say? I like Dave Matthews. I stumbled across the cd Crash the other day. Hadn't heard it in a while. Just a warning -- this is a long blog. Get a drink and snack.

It is time to start sharing about a ministry idea. Let me tell you where it started and where we are at today. Before Watermark was being formed, God had already started to deal with my heart and my good friend Jeff Johnson's heart. Jeff (and Kathy) and I have been thru some pretty amazing things. And it is this relationship that God has chosen to bless. Jeff and I were talking the other night about how God has really blessed our friendship. To Him be the glory. But as time went on, God started to deal with us on another level. Jeff and I were sensing that God was trying to teach us something.

Because of the work I used to do, I had started to develop philosophies our selling. One of the major points is that people buy from people. Relationship is critical to closing the deal. Education, communicate, and develop the relationship. Several of the salesmen who may be reading this know I would drone on and on about this.

This point is true in different aspects of life. This is the take away. People will come to know Christ because people around them connect, education and develop the friendship. We are the only Christ some people will ever see. This was a spear head for what we felt God was strongly pointing out to us. So jeff and I would dream and talk about what that would look like.

We decided to take this a little more seriously. We went on a mini-retreat. We camped out. tents, fire, grilling, worship music, confession, prayer. IT WAS AMAZING. I cannot remember how it all fell together, but that night was a turning point. We would discuss how incredible it would be to provide a non-threating environment for people to come to know Christ thru relationships with others. We started dreaming about a fire, food, music and message. And the idea of Camp Fire Ministries (CFM) was born.

About the same time, Jeff and his daughter, Lela, built a fire pit in their back yard. This has been a great starting point for lives being changed thru prayer, music, sharing and fire. The Johnson's have a great spot in their back yard where God has moved in many lives. Time and time again, we would get together and light a fire. Before you know it, people would just drop by. People who need to talk and pray and be encouraged. I am thankful to God that I have been there for many great times and thankful that He has given this vision to Jeff and I. I have heard some say, "you guys just get together, goof off and waste time back there". To those individuals I say, I forgive you for saying that. Because that is the farthest thing from the truth. Many lives have been changed because God met us there.

Then, a new concept in church came into our lives - Watermark. We would listen to Steve drone on (just kidding steve) about relationships, community, gatherings, post modern, opportunities to serve, spending life together, etc. This just seemed too ironic. God was confirming in our minds that we were on the right path. I can speak for myself on this - God released me from the "organized church" mentality and allowed me to experience Christ far differently....I could that that paragraph and write for awhile. Maybe later. This was so timely for me because it just solidified what God was saying all along.

So we prayed - collectively, separately, with others. We have drawn up ideas. What does this look like? I know this a long blog. But it is on my heart.

Jeff started doing speaking engagements. 1st Priority, FCA, church groups, youth groups. God provided and is still providing opportunites for him to challenge youth and adults for the cause of Christ. He is also active in the Youth Pastors network here in GH. This provides an opportunity to pour into the lives of youth pastors in this area.

The vision started to take shape. We have a burden for the next generation and a passion for local ministry. These two elements are the foundation for CFM. The local church is the hub for continuing ministry - outreach, evangelism, global, local. And the next generation is the church of tomorrow. That is where we are at. Melting these two areas together.

What does it look like? Well, in three areas. First, our gatherings. They will involve fire, food, worship and message. Simple. Provide an opportunity for people to connect with people. These times will be driven for outreach and connection. Secondly, we are intentional about helping the next generation. What the? By working with 1st Priority, we find a network of people who need direction, prayer, encouragement, accountiblity and connection. Opportunities to do leadership development. We are committed to using that conduit - for youth pastors, youth workers, youth themselves. Again, this will play out in many different ways - but using mini-retreats with fire, food, music and message. Thirdly, we are commited to worship development. There are many churches struggling with worship and technology. We are going to provide a service of evaluation and education for churches who are really looking into worship and technology. This will also play out in several different ways. One way will be working with a church from beginning to end and helping them develop a plan of attack.

Where are we at? we have started the formal creation of CFM. We have prayed about trustees to help govern the ministry and that is in place. Over the next year, we will be ratching up a notch and having some gathering times. We are looking for people to partner with us -- pray mostly; and get involved with our gatherings. We are not looking for financial support. We believe that God will work that out.

Wow. I will expand more as time goes on. This has been a dream, turned vision for about 4 years now. Like I mentioned earlier, we have seen success in the times we have already had. We are now just becoming more intentional about it.

We will be gathering a prayer team. If your interested, see Jeff or I. We would love to talk to you about it.

Thanks for your time.

Thursday, September 30, 2004

The fog is lifting

It is foggy in Grand Haven this morning. As I was driving in, I could barely see in front of my car. The fog was thick! I round the corners to park my car and I could not see the tower. For a couple hours, I was having difficulty seeing the bridge. Then the sun came out. And the sky started to clear. I see the fog lifting now; it will be a while before it is completely lifted. Which just makes me think of what Christ does for us. We go thru live living with no direction; much like living in a fog. But it is not until Christ enters that we truly start see and the fog lifts.

More later.
The Fog Horn

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Can Fall really be here?

It looks as though we are in for cool temperatures for a while. I am ok with that. No snow is still good in my book. In fact, from about 12/20 to 01/05 is really enough snow for me.

I am in the tower today. 7 am to 7 pm. I discovered if you open the doors and windows on the 3rd floor and the windows on the 1st floor, a monster breeze flows thru. Did I mention I am doing some odd CAD work on the side? Well, I am. It is good to keep my brain active while doing the tower thing.

Boxes, boxes, boxes. Need I say more. Except moving provides a great opportunity to "weed out" existing inventory if you know what I mean. I am enjoying that.

I think I may have mentioned I am taking on a different role at Watermark. Working with the programming team is great. The team is awesome. We think up some of the craziest things. But all in all, it is exciting to see where God is leading this community of believers.

What can I say? I am excited about the new stuff coming up. Here we are 1 year into this church plant, making more opportunities for people to know Christ. I say it that way because it is two-fold. to come to know and to know more. I really appreciate the attitude and heart which is a part of Watermark.

To God be the glory. Do you remember the mentoring relationships I was involved with? Since moving to this new job, I have had to be more intentional (that was for Gooch) about meeting with them. I recently had coffee with one of the guys at the ministry center downtown GH. You know, Jumpin Java. Anyway, after some conversation, the other guys showed up. After some conversation and confession from the one who is a Christian, the non-believer started talking openly about his life. to make the long story short, he accepted Christ. WOW. 9 months of conversation and relationship building. It was cool. He loves in Holland. So I made some calls to a good friend I know down there who will pick up the ball where I left off.

Were you at Core Focus? Great time with the group. One of the statements that stands out to me was this "you may be #15". I think it is in reference to a song. The moral or morale is this stay at it. Relationships can be difficult. God will provide opporunities.

Gotta get back to work.
Becca's dad

PS. I too share the same feelings expressed by others in the blogsphere. One of our greater minds has fallen and is no longer blogging. a moment of silence for N8. "PAUSE FOR SILENCE". thank you

Monday, September 27, 2004

Programming day


Getting ready to move. It sucks. Boxes all over, cat's upset.

Getting ready for programming.

Gotta go.

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

It is Tuesday.

Man I am telling you. I had a great weekend and a great Monday. One of the things I am enjoyin about this new job is my schedule. I am able to take my daughter to school. That is awesome. I really enjoy that time.

Saturday was ok.

Sunday was awesome. The gathering was great. Thompson provide the teaching. It was great. Yes, for those that were there. my name does mean "one who drives a cart". I love to drive, but that is a whole different conversation. I went to lunch with a friend I had not seen in a while. That was great. Then I picked up The Boo. We just had some good down time playing games and stuff. Then the road rally. That was fun. We have a great life group. Anyone wanting to check it out - we meet on Sunday evenings usually at Thompsons. It is a great group. Thompson is a crazy driver. I did all I could to slow him down. But he is very competitive.

Monday came. Broke in slow. Took Becca to school. Side note: I hate fund raisers. Especially those that involve candy bars. I think I personally supported Becca's class trip. Anyway, then we had program meeting. What a great meeting. We attacked some issues we are struggling with and came out with a great plan. This team is so passionate about reaching the lost. It is awesome. I sometimes feel really inadequate next to the team, but I am so glad I am a part of it. They certainly push the bar.

Well, its Tuesday. I am in the tower today. Until 7:00 pm. At which time I will go home and make sure the cat is still doing ok.

I am in the middle of packing. Anyone with ideas on where to get boxes (good boxes) please forward that on. I have a couple of weeks and I will be moving.

No other profound thoughts.

Watching the traffic go by,

Saturday, September 18, 2004

Saturday September 18, 2004

What a beautiful day? I am in the tower today. Here until 11:00 pm tonight. There are many boats a floating today. There is a big festival - The Salmon Fest - this weekend here. So there are many more people around than normal.

So I was review the past week and looking forward to the week ahead. Tomorrow begins a new week. Not sure whether I was headed with that thought.

Kitten update: The kitten is doing great. Or should I say cat. In April, he could fit in my hand. In June, he weighed in at 6 pounds. In July, he weighed in at 9 pounds. Ok, this is the point where the vet scolded me for the cat's weigh. Well, we took him in this week and he weighs 12 pounds. But on an up note, he is declawed - front only - and that other thing that responsible pet owners do are both taken care of.

Tomorrow is going to be a great gathering. I really love Sundays. I look forward to them.

That's all for now.

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Hello, my friend, hello

just called to let you know...

What the?

What a great couple of days. I met with the fellas for programming yesterday and sat in on the staff lunch today. I am slowly emmersing... what. I recently was asked to upgrade my responsiblities at Watermark. We have a need for a production director on sunday mornings. The PD will be responsible primarily for timing. In addition, there is a list of other things. Coordination and comunication. Encourage and accountibility. I am excited because I can help shape the vision during programming and then implement at the gathering. I am excited about that. I think it is something God has opened up. It is a logical next step for Watermark.

Today, we broke bread together. No really - lunch. Gooch, Nate, Wally, Pot, Roach and Mrs. Roach (what) and Jayz. What a crew. Creativity was flying. Deur was missed. Shout out to Steve. and a moment of silence................... enough. It was cool to hear what is going on in each life. Had a great convo with Pot about music composing and the passion in his life. As I sat there, I realized I was the oldest. Suck.

Anyone know what 242 is? More later.

I received some clarification today. Let me explain. I have had some conversations with the fellas what our culture at Watermark. It was really cool to hear about the next phase of development. Watermark is all about developing it's people; reproducing characteristics in people. I am was encouraged when they laid the vision out. All I can say is this: the future looks awesome. God is at work. I know I am not giving any details. To be honest, I am not sure the fellas are ready to annouce the next steps. Please pray for the guys. They are being stretched. Year two is going to be great.

I am watching the STUPIDEST show on tv right now. Fox is the one station that comes in clear. The show is called elimidate. I am not even going to go into the premise of this show. Avoid it at all costs. I feel my IQ falling.

Well, anyway, signing off

Saturday, September 11, 2004

the weekend is here

I am just finishing up a long night at the bridge. I am having creativity block. Gooch wanted me to work on some video stuff for Sunday's gathering and I am blocked. No worries though. I will get a hold of him and brainstorm some things later tonight.

Pick up becca in a few hours; after I get some sleep that is. Spent part of last night at the Johnson's house. Yes, a flame was lit. Conversation was great.

No new revelations. I am struggling with my bible reading right now. I was talking to Jeff about this last night. We, Jeff, Gooch and I, have commited to reading the chronological bible and hold each other accountable. We are somewhere in the old testament in the Moses/Aaron domain. yikes.

Anyway, in another hour my work week is complete and I will have a few days off.


Wednesday, September 08, 2004

How you doin?

I am overlooking the Grand River today. It is amazing what you see up here. People are crazy driving across that bridge. I love it when I hear a horn honk. It is one of two things: I believe it is my fan club just saying hi - both positively and negatively. Because there is an increase in honking, I know the fact that I am a bridge operator is getting around. I like it when people wave and honk. I would like remind some that they need to wave with their WHOLE hand not just one finger. That you, Dennis Jackson for reminding all of us of that fact.

Did that camping thing this weekend with the Boo. It was so much fun. Within 1/2 hour we had the camp set and ready for fire. So we jump in our swimming attire and headed off to the pool. Becca is part fish - no really I am convinced somewhere in her background is a mermaid. In and out up and down. She had a great time. I thought I may as well jump in. Right? Holy cow, Batman. THAT WATER WAS FREEZING. Do you think that fact came up while talking to Becca? NOOOO! I am often amazed at the intestinal fortatude (that was for Gooch and Deur) that kids have. Their ability to adapt and adjust not only physically but mentally or socially.

Did I mention I met my neighbors camping? talked about life, camping, the weekend. We shared some smores. Talked alittle about Jesus (hey - they brought it up). By the end of the two days, I think I had the opportunity to pray with a couple of them about things in their life.

Which again brings me to the point that I know I have brought up several times. Look for the opportunity to get to know someone. Share part of your life, your story. Look for God to move and then walk thru the door. I am sure it was alittle awkward for them when I started talking. It was for me. Yet God provided an opporunity to talk, get to know, and influence. Now I do not know what will happen as a result. I know this: I was able to plant some seeds. I pray God will not let the seeds die. Only He knows the outcome.

Sign off from the Bridge

Saturday, September 04, 2004

The long weekend is here.

I had a great fire side session the other night Jeff and Gooch. I love these guys because we are like minded on lots of issues. We challenged eah other in areas we need to be challenged in. One of the areas is in reading scripture. Guy, I have such a rebellious spirit this way. Once I start reading , it is great. I am walking away with some new to chew on and think about. And i that process, God speaks. The problem is I hate actually sitting down and doing it. I know what you are thinking. Goodness, you are 38 years old, grow up and get it done.

I totally agree.

Jeff and I really feel like the time is now to launch our ministry idea. We have been baking this idea for quite some time and it is finally taking shape. If we are all ministers, what does that look like for you? Your spouse? Your family? Your extended family? Your job? What does that look like. We are convinced that our passion for the next generation is growing more and more. Jeff has a burning passion for youth pastors and leaders, local mission, and serving the community. I have a passions for worship and technical excellence and the emerging church. We both have a passion for the lost. I know I am "skiming" over detail. Jeff and/or I would love to talk to anyone who is more interested in detail.

I guess we have really bought into the Watermark philosphy. You are a minister. Go and "be the church".

I am rambling. I guess what I am saying, and have said before, is this - watch for the opportunity. God will provide the right time, the right person in the right place for you to develop relationships. If we watch how Jesus handled things, he listened; he prayed; he interacted; he served; he provided leadership and vision; he taught; he touched people lives with his message: God is relentlessly pursuing us. He wants to be in right relationship with us.

More thoughts later,

Thursday, September 02, 2004

What a beautiful day?

I am in the tower today. Unbelieveable! there is a slight breeze and the sun is shining. I love watching traffic - water and autos. I turned down a trip on the Lake this morning. Jeff and Tim - friends for long time - were out on the "pond" this morning. I am glad I did. I was sick this morning bad.

This was the first time the cat - Tigger - saw me sick. It is pretty funny, now. Then it wasn't. He could not figure out what was happening. Tigger is an interesting cat. He does some amazing things. More later.

I mentioned eariler I am reading a new book. The book is good. It has helped me focus some things differently. Which always puts me in an evaluation mode. Time is such a precious commodity. We crave more of it and there is only so much. I was conversing with a friend of mine the other day. We were talking about her daughter who just started the 9th grade at a new school. I say new only because it is a different location and different schedule. She was telling me about the summer and the things they were doing together. I could not help to think where did the summer go? What am I doing to make an eternal difference with my own daughter and family. I hate these times in my life because yes it is necessary to go thru but is a painful process.

I am regrouping right now. New job; new cat (well not so new but new experiences); new place to live; My schedule is out of control. Help I have fallen and cannot get up. What? Sorry about that. With the new job, I have alot of time to reflect. God has been showing me new things. It is good. more later.

Well, I need to get back to work.

Plans for the weekend? Make sure you spend it with family and friends.


Wednesday, September 01, 2004

School is back in session

I have been receiving several emails this week from people confessing this: we are so happy school is back in session. I do enjoy the school year. There is a routine to it and a schedule. There is a rhythm.

I hate what it does though. It takes up so much time during the work week. School and homework and extra curricular...do not get me started. Becca's mom and I have be extremely conscience of the amount of time Becca spends outside the classroom. I am convinced she is a better person because we monitor it so heavily.

You may ask why is this coming up? Well, let me tell ya. Gooch gave me a new book to sink my teeth into. Not really; i don't chew on books. So far it is pretty good. The premise is changing up chaos for connected relationships. Now I have not gotten too far in yet - so don't quiz me Gooch - but what I have seen thus far looks great.

Take time; spend with the important ones in your life.

Uncle Carter

Saturday, August 28, 2004

good morning

Hi all

it is 5:30 am on Saturday. I am in the tower. It is raining to beat the band. Being here is awesome. The lighting and thunder are huge. And the rainfall is deafening. Pretty darn cool. The emergency power came on and everything lit up like a Christmas tree.

I am working the late shift. Our shifts rotate around so no one person has to do the "graveyard" shift. I am ok with that as I would be the one harnested to this shift. Low person on the totem pole syndrome.

As I sit here, I wonder how big God is. Big enough to control everything in every time all the time. And yet small enough to have a personal relationship with me. How is that? I guess I will need to banter that one around with people smarter than me like Deur, Thompson, Kiwi or even my daughter.

Tomorrow is one of my nephew's birthdays. The theme for the party is pirates. I called him and asked if we needed to like or talk like pirates. He humored me and laughed. It will be a good time of meeting with family. I cannot wait.

Well that's all for now.


Wednesday, August 25, 2004

great thoughts

Check out Quiet Riders thoughts for today.

Made me think....twice.


Tuesday, August 24, 2004

It is a strange feeling...

Getting ready to start another job. There is the weird couple weeks from the time you give notice until the departure date. Then there is the cleaning out of the office. That is weird too. Someone once told me - make your hellos long and your goodbyes short. There is some truth in that.

Needless to say, God is in control. How much control??? That is the eternal question. I have a habit of taking charge and running with the "ball". How out of control is that? Yet, He remains there; loving me and bringing back to the center point - where I am happiest and know I need to be.

Spent some time with the Johnson's last night. It is always good to touch base and be. Last nights conversation revolved around what's next? the job; the new place; new school year; new parenting schedule; finances; etc. Oy!

Had a great programming meeting with Gooch and Pot. I love Monday afternoons. It is a great talk of vision and creativity. I really enjoy that contribution. We have some really cool gathering times coming up.

Did you hear Watermark is launching a new service? Excitement abounds as news gets out. God just keeps reinventing Watermark; reshaping; reimagining. I love it. Can we all keep up that is the question?

One last question...where has the summer went? I cannot believe that Becca starts school VERY, VERY soon. She is growing up to fast. I was talking to Becca's mom the other day and reflecting on the last 10 years and how quickly it has gone. Unbelievable.

Well, that's my thoughts for the day.


Monday, August 23, 2004

New Books

Hi all

Great Weekend!!!!!!!!!!!

I have added a couple new books. One is the Making Room For Life from Randy Frazee. Both Deurty and Gooch and Gooch's wife recommend read it. With that high powered recommendation, how can I go wrong?

The second is the One Year Chronological Bible. It is the bible laid out how it happened with time as the filter. Pretty interesting. For my accountibility guys, we decided to read and hold each other to the task. It is difficult because of the discipline thing. I always struggle with discipline. Yuck!

More later,

Friday, August 20, 2004

I have a new job

Yes it is with some regret I gave notice today at my current employer. I have been struggling with some issues for a while and I believe God has brought another job along for a purpose.

Before you all get really curious, I am going to be working as a bridge operator. Not just any bridge, but the bridge that spans the Grand River on US31 in Grand Haven. Yes, it is true. I have been already titled the Bridge Troll. Which also makes me low man on the troll pole. I trained for it and am now a certified bridge operator. I was speaking with a friend who commented that I am fulfilling a dream that most people have had since they were 9 years old. I am operating the bridge.

Pray for me. The bridge has a huge feeling of power to it. I stop traffic. I let boats thru. I could leave it open. It is a feeling of control I have never felt before. In all seriousness, it does provide some things that are lacking in my life. Like an opportunity to study or read. The time is not always that demanding while there. So there is some down time. That is good.

I am looking for another place to live. That is the next hurdle.

Nothing too much else at this point.

Out for now.
The Troll

Thursday, August 19, 2004


Hi all. Sorry for the delay in transmissions.

The Weekend. There are several items I think were great about the summit. Most all the speakers were great to hear. I wished I could have heard TD Jakes. I had to leave early and missed him, but I heard he had a lot to say.

My take away was on the practical sides of things. These were issues I have heard before in other applications. So there was nothing new to me. But good solid reminds about things. Like for example you are what you read. There is only so much time. Red the good books. Another was take a minimum of 30minutes a day to read. 10 minutes with periodicals. 20 minutes for good solid books. Excellent. I do not do enough of that. One other was motivation of people. The psychology of how people are wired. What buttons to push?

The best part to me was the time I spent with the team. Catching up and discussing the summit and how it was impacting our lives. There was a session where we got together and hammered somethings out. It was awesome to see how God was moving among us.

More later,

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

Willow Conference

I am sooooo excited. The leadership summit is tomorrow and I am going. I have been praying that God will bless this time in a unique way. I am looking forward to some great things.

More on that later.

Is this blog worthy?

I don't know. But thought I would post it anyway.


1) Ziploc Bags: They are Male, because they hold everything in, but you can see right through them.

2) Copiers: They are Female, because once turned off it takes a while to warm them up again. It's an effective reproductive device if the right buttons are pushed, but can wreak havoc if the wrong buttons are pushed.

3) Tires: Male, because they go bald and are often over-inflated.

4) Hot Air Balloon: Male, because to get it to go anywhere you have to light a fire under it, and, of course there's the hot air.

5) Sponges: Female, because they're soft, squeezable and retain water.

6) Web Page: Female, because it's always getting hit on.

7) Subway: Male, because it uses the same old lines to pick people up.

8) Hourglass: Female, because over time the weight shifts to the bottom.

9) Hammer: Male, because it hasn't changed much over the last 5,000 years, but its handy to have around.

10) Remote Control: Female. Ha! You thought it'd be Male. But consider this - it gives a man pleasure, he'd be lost without it, and while he doesn't always know the right buttons to push, he keeps trying.

Keep laughing,

Monday, August 09, 2004

New site to check out

Yes, mike Morgan - worship leading madman - has his own website. Look right under must see website. Share it with everyone you know!

Good weekend. Pretty good monday happening. Leaving soon to visit with the fellas and do some programming.

No new revelations.


Friday, August 06, 2004

Well, the weekend is here


it is Friday afternoon and I am wrapping it up for the weekend. Pretty good day. I spent it mostly with the Quiet Rider going to a job site wrapping up details. He is going on vacation next week. Slacker!

Needless to say, Saturday plans are set and in motion. Parade and fireworks and lots of grill action. Sunday will be the gathering. I am not sure what is happening as we did not do much planning. I am SURE the fellas have put the plan in motion and I think Deur is bringing the thunder. It will be great the hear how the Chicago trip went.

Nothing more than that.

until later,

Thursday, August 05, 2004

Coast Guard week is upon us

The time of the year where the city of Grand Haven is overrun by tourists. I understand that tourism is an important part of the economy here in the Haven, but it does not mean I like it.

What is does do is make me think. Think about all the individuals that are traveling here for rest and relaxation. People spending time with family and friends and enjoying our city & beaches. That is awesome.

I had an opportunity to spend some time with a friend last night. We were talking about things. I had mentioned some revelations that have recently hit me. Like what our speaker was talking about Sunday morning. He is so right on. We are so used to the experience of being at church. We are almost addicted to the worship experience. The early church was not addicted to church. They were believers because the tomb was empty.

I think there is real truth and revelation there. Our society is so "me" driven. We do most everything with "me" in mind. Yet, we do not deserve what God has offered us freely.

This came up because we were praying over our meal and I said, "Thank you, Lord, that the tomb is empty."


Monday, August 02, 2004

It has been a while

Good afternoon.

It is raining here in downtown GH. This is Coast Guard festival week. The week where all true GHist run and hide. The town usually grows to several times the normal size. So there are several people around. They will close off the main street soon and set up the carnival.

So I am suppose to be doing programming for Watermark now. The Gooch and I are hanging this afternoon as the rest of the fellas are either in Chicago or on vacation. We are at the Coffee Grounds watching traffic and solving the worlds problems. But it is overcast and looks like it is going to rain.

So it was a good weekend. Friday was laid back. Saturday was laid back. We went to the children's parade and met the Thompson clan. It was great to see Becca and the Thompson boys watch the parade. They see the world completely differently. After the parade, we had lunch and chilled with some movies from Blockbuster.

Later that night we were hanging at the Johnsons. We had dinner when Roach and Judy showed up. The conversation flew as Roach was ranting and raving. Becca and I hide in the basement until the conversation died down.

The gathering on Sunday was awesome. GET THE RECORDING. I cannot explain the freedom I felt after.

All this to say, I am glad I am here.

gotta go for now.

Monday, July 26, 2004

movie night

Well, I met with the programming fellas today.  That is such a great time.  We discuss all sorts of creative ways to bring the gospel.  It is great for me to have the ability to input.  There are times when I feel like I am trying to catch up to these guys -- because they are creative.  But they are patient with me and I like it.

Afterward, N8, Roach and I talked ministry stuff for a while.  It was great to get some good insight from them.  Good stuff about broadening horizons and looking beyond and dreaming larger.  That was awesome.  I walked away with the need to pray a little harder and give a little more.

I ended up over to Jeff & Kathy's.  They invited me to stay for dinner and a movie.  Hitting the Bourne Supremacy tonight.  I am excited.  I hope I am not disappointed.  More on that./

I have been thinking alot lately about some things -- how fortunate I am to have a place to live, car to drive, home to go to.  Some of the others are the support people I have.  And today I am referring to my family on the west side of the state.  I know I have said this before but I have seen a lot of healing with my ex-wife, daughter, and ex-family.  they have been great about things.  I have really appreciate the acceptance they extend to me.  I know it is weird but it works for us and it really helps Becca adjust.  That it me and I know Sarah is what is important.  So to all of them -- Birt & Gaye, Dave & Sarah, Britt, Suzy, Tyler, Drew and Seth, Matt, Heidi, Izak and Liberty -- I say I love you and thank you.

All of the stuff to say our God is a big God how can change lives and heal if we only allow Him to do so.

My head hurts now.


I hit 100 postings

It seems like I should have a party or something.  100 postings!  Do I really have that much to say?  I don't know.

What an interesting weekend.  I picked up Becca Friday night.  We spent the evening at a friends house.  This is a couple really close to Becca and me.  The father of the wife had recently passed on.  So we spent time with them being the church.

Saturday was car repair day.  I hate cars.  They are a bad investment.  I still need to do a little more work on it but things are good for now.

Saturday night was rough.  Becca picked up something.  She was not feeling well.  So I did not play Sunday morning.  I did sound instead because there was misfire with communication.  that was fun.

Gotta go for now.

Friday, July 23, 2004


Yes I am still at work.  I am not happy about it but I am here.  I almost had to go to CA again yesterday, but one of my co-workers went instead.  The store is opening and the personnel their have the jitters.  So, the pres and vp of engineering from my company jumped a plane and are there right now.  I am here as support for them.  We ended up reprogramming some things.  Suck.

The weekend is here.  I am excited about seeing my daughter.  Jeff and Kathy are watching her right now as I could not pick her up on time. 

Mike Morgan just called to ask if I want to play keyboards on Sunday.  I say, "Is a frog's butt water tight?"  I am there.  I can't wait.  I love watermark.  This sunday is going to be good. 

Anyway, my guys from CA are direct connecting me.  Gotta go.

becca's dad

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

Read the Thompson blog

I was out of town and did not have time to catch up on the blogsphere.  I was reading Thompson's most recent blog about the intervention he had.  I love reading the comments section because there is always someone with a different spin - good, bad, funny or serious.

This was a response to that blog.  Read the blog and then read the comments.

I heard a pastor say once that a lady from his church complained about someone smelling of cigarette smoke in the pew near her. He told us later that he wants his church to stink a little bit. Acceptance, it's what Jesus specialized in, and I don't. Yet.
"The church should be the same kind of community, but somehow it's become a culture of dressing up, retaining anonymity in a crowd, performing duty and listening to a professional."
My heart resonants with that thought.  I want to be the church.  Jesus did specialize in acceptance.  We were discussing this in a group I was in on Monday.  How we miss the point on how Jesus responded to people and how he calls us to do likewise.  How in our weakness he is strong.  Inspite of our hangups, he continues to impact, influence, and change lives.

Thought for the day.


Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Two more bloggers

I was surf my blogsphere and realized that Clint and Jamie Ussher are blogging now.  I met Clint and Jamie while attending Spring Lake Wesleyan.  Great Couple!  Great individuals!  I am sure great writing will come.
I have broke the silence.  Yes, I also added the Roach - the watermark intern - to my blogsphere.  Dude, don't let me down.
Check um out!

Back in the saddle again - again

How are things?  It is so good to be back in West Michigan.  Let me tell you about my flight back on Friday.
I arrived at the San Fran airport at 8:00 am for a 10:00 am flight.  No problems checking in and no problems making it thru security.  The flight to Chicago was uneventful as well.After arriving in Chicago, I realized I had an 1 1/2 layover.  Which is great.  I flew into O'Hare and there is always something to watch or look at.  I arrived at 4:30 Chicago time and was scheduled to leave at 5:00 pm and arrive in GR at 7:00 pm.  Sounds really good....yeah right.  Because of the weather, flights were not arriving on time.  when flights do not arrive on time, they do not leave on time.  My flight was delayed for 2 hours for a scheduled time of 7:00 pm which would still put me in GR at 9:00.  So as time is marching on, I notice on the board that another flight number comes up.  I think to myself, oh maybe they just had another flight ready for take off and they needed to get those numbers up.  So I went for another walk and looked at the larger more informed monitors.  Suck.  The flight had been cancelled and there was no annoucement.  So I went to the little stand, behind several people.  I over course was asking the same question.  How do I get home.  Well, there is a 10:00pm flight that I could go on standby after the other 50 people or a flight leaving Saturday morning.
After many trials, conversations, calls back to the office, I received a rental car and drove back to GR.  I arrived at 3:30 am Saturday morning.
I have decided to barricade myself in my home.  Food to be delivered.  Will Wendy's deliver?
I am happy to be home.
Thanks for listening,

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

what is grace?

I am not sure how to describe it. Yet, it is a huge part of my life. Much like air - you need it; you want it and you do not deserve it.

Today was a challenging day. Product that was suppose to arrive yesterday did not get here until today. Does not seem like a big deal right? Except, all the system commissioning was suppose to be done today. My installers are flying out tomorrow. In addition, one of my installers measured the TV and the mounts and discovered TV's we are mounting - do not fit. How does that happened? The TV's are 32 inches high; the mounts are 27 inches. Yikes. We spent time and energy running around looking for replacement TV's right? Then we find out the store wants us out by 9:00 tonight. I called our director of engineering and project management and proceeded to tell them how bad this situation sucks. This day could not have ended worse. Except -- after all that conversation and running around, my installer calls and says "I feel horrible. I measured the TV wrong. It is 23 inches not 32 inches."

Wow. Do I have some apologizing to do.

Life continues to deal "unfair" hands. I am so glad I have a God who relentlessly pursues me and loves my unconditionally. That is a big job - Right Jeff and Gooch? I am so thankful he just wants to be in right relationship with us.

Well, I could preach a sermon. Since I am not sure when the rest of my guys are going to roll in or if I may have to take them to the airport at 3:00 am, I am cutting off.

From the ROCK,
Sean Connery aka c-man

Tuesday, July 13, 2004


Hi all

the weather is wonderful here. I could easily move. Although, all of watermark would have to move with me. It pains me not to be at the gathering. It is disappointing.

Anyway, my trip to NYC was good, but long. We received the call late on Wednesday and two of us were dispatched to take care of the problem. We left Grand Haven at about 6:00 pm. We stop in PA at about 1:30 am; found a hotel and had a short nights sleep. We got up the next morning at 7:00 am and made it to the job site by 3:30. After some quick conversations, we had work to do. The customer added a bunch of stuff that had to be done because the store opened the next day. Suck. We left there Thursday evening about 9:00 pm and arrived back in Grand Haven Friday morning at 11:00 am. It was a long trip. We did that so I could have time with my daughter before going to CA. Which is where I am right now. This traveling is killing me.

So my flights left on Sunday morning at 11:20. Again, suck. I arrived in CA 3:30 Pacific. Didn't do much that day. Monday arrived and work continued.

I am taking a moment to write just to say. I am missing home and missing my daughter. Hope to see you soon.

Lost in San Fran,

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

I'm leaving on a jetplane.....

It feels like I am traveling more. Which is not a good thing. People often ask isn't it great to travel? Traveling for business is never fun. Yes you are out of the office and you are in a different city. But you live out of a suitcase and your time is totally committed. That sucks.

As thankful as I am to have a job, it sucks that I am traveling. I just like being home....

Anyway, I am leaving for New York (on short notice) and then San Francisco all next week. I will try to blog but....



I mentioned yesterday I would go a little deeper. Last Friday night, I had the pleasure of sharing a campfire with several people. These floated in and out but it was mostly Jeff and Kathy, Jeff and Heather and Steve, Jessica, da boys, and da Z. Smores we consumed.

Great conversation flew. I am convinced that we solved world problems and are on to bigger and better things. After a few hours, people started to fade. Da boys and Da Z needed to get into bed. After the night sounds started, the conversation started to change. Before I knew it, it was Jeff, Jeff, Heather and myself sharpening iron. Talking about issues in our lives and how God is using us and working on us. I cannot describe then what happened. I forget who mentioned a prayer time but we went after it and then God came. It was awesome. Many tears were flowing that night.

These are "stake" moments in our lives. Moments where God chooses to reveal himself. We had such a great time. I am looking forward to the next.

All my troubles seemed so far away,

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

Well it is Monday or Tuesday or something


That was my attempt at being pomo. Ya know.

I recently acquired a new cell phone. Well, a cell phone on steroids. It is the new Blackberry from Nextel. Yes, it is cool and I am pleased to have it.

Next Monday starts a new chapter for me. I will be taking Monday afternoons off to meet with the Watermark fellas. I am excited about helping with programming. That is if they tell me where they are meeting - right Kiwi?

Great weekend. Becca arrived back this weekend. ROCK ON! I know the trip was great for her and I know it was great doing, seeing and being with her mom and step dad - seeing her new cousin, old cousin and aunt & uncle she has not seen in a while. But it was sure good to see her on Sunday.

I have some deeper thoughts about the weekend, but I will need to share those later.

Until then,

Friday, July 02, 2004

yee ha

The Friday before the 3 day weekend. Plans: grill, fish, gathering. These are the only plans. Only, my daughter is coming back this weekend. Yup! It is true. I cannot wait to see her.

This morning I spent with some fellas from my workplace. Always a good time worshiping the bean.

Well, I hope you have a great 4th of July.


Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Back and forth

I had the opportunity to go back to Indy yesterday. Guy, that was a long day. I arrived in Indy around 10:00 am their time and did not leave until almost 5:00 (with a 4 1/2 hour drive home). I needed to stop and get gas. And I decided to get something to eat. As I was pumping the gas, A man walks up and says,"What part of Michigan you from?"

We engaged in conversation and I asked him if he had dinner. He said no but would like to have some conversation. After pumping the gas, I went in the restaurant to see him at the counter. He waved me over. As we ate, we discussed several topics. I met the counter staff, the wait staff, even the manager came out. This guy was apparently a "local". Conversation took several turns but ended well.

I talked to my traveling daughter last night. She is having a great time with her mom out east. They are in Boston. She is home sick and wants to come home soon. I think they are planning to stop and see Aunt Heidi and Uncle Matt and her two cousins in Buffalo. I cannot wait to see her.

That's all for now. Oh wait - 1. 3 day weekend coming up. 2. Possible fishing expedition planned. 3. I purchased a new cell phone this weekend. (The Blackberry from Nextel. Giddy up!)


Monday, June 28, 2004

I wished I could take credit for this but.....

I recently heard a joke I could not help but share. Forgive me in advance.

A nun is hailing a cab. One stops and she gets in. The cab driver starts in route to her destination. As he is driving, he looks into the mirror several times.

He finally says, "I know this is going to sound weird but I have a confession to make. I have always wanted to kiss a nun."

The nun says, "Well, that is no problem. Except two things must be true. Number one you must be catholic. Number two you must be single."

So the cab driver pulls over and they both get out and kiss. They jump back in the cab and continue on.

After a few minutes, the cab driver says, "I have another confession. I am married and I am Baptist."

The nun says, "Thats ok. I am headed to a costume party and my name is Kevin."

Have a great day,

Steve Thompson
(um....I mean c-man)

Sunday, June 27, 2004

it is Sunday

Day one. I am at the thompsons house. we are spending life together. Kathy J is here. She is alone because Jeff is out on their boat with his sons.

We just finished story & are singing songs. Just a minute....

Well, we are done praying. What a great example of family.

Long weekend. I spent time on the road. But ended the day with a long boat ride. I have been getting headaches and today was one of those days. I am waiting for my insurance to kick in before I go to the doctor.

well, I am being rude. see ya


Friday, June 25, 2004

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Thursday, June 24, 2004

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Wednesday, June 23, 2004

what's happenin?

Do you remember what tv show that is from? Isn't the mind a wonderful thing. A good friend of mine once told me that the mind is like a closet full of shoe boxes. You have a memory and you store it in the shoe box. Then at just the right time, smell, sound, it comes back to you and you pull that memory out of the box.

If I were to say, "Well listen to my story about a man named Jed..." You would immediately know what song it is, what show it was from. You may even be able to pull where you were when you watched the show.

Recently, I have been challenged to memorize scripture. It is sad that I can memorize tv shows, movie lines, and song lyrics and I have a hard time memorizing scripture. Deur or Thompson did a bit at Watermark about how Jewish families would memorize scripture. How a child would have to memorize a chapter of the bible. Oh I'm sorry. It was the 1st five chapters of the bible! They would repeat and repeat daily until they memorized it.

And I complain about one verse a week.

Becca's Dad

Monday, June 21, 2004

Welcome, Welcome, Welcome

New blogger to the blogsphere - Heidi Furr, the wife of Matt Furr.

Looking forward to some great insight - no pressure, Heidi!!!!

Hi Ho, Hi Ho

Good morning.

What a great weekend. Happy belated Father's day to all those fathers our there. And thanks to all the significant others who made the day special.

What a great gathering yesterday. It was good to see Mike Morgan back in the saddle, again. I had the chance to here Mike share a little about his trip on Saturday. It sounds like it was awesome and how God moved on this trip. It was also great to here Steve T and his dad share about fathers and their role. Some great insight from these guys. I am glad we recorded it because I am sure we will have requests for it.

I took a vacation day on Friday. I, with Thompson, N8, Mike Morgan, de Roach, Mike W. and Rob (who now has a blog - see thompsons site for that), went to the Creative Infusion conference at Daybreak. Let me start by saying that it was GOOD to spend time with the fellas. I really believe in the power of team and if of anything, it was great to take that time. Other than that, I was a little disappointed with the conference. There were 4 sessions I benefited from - Rob Bell and Wayne Schmidt (sp)(sorry Wayne) were awesome. Those sessions rocked. There was a panel discussion about 50 creative ideas to try. That was great. And there was a back and forth dialogue about how the process works that was good. I am still trying to figure out the relevance of the rest.

Anyway, lots of stuff to do today.

It's off to work I go,

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

New Blogger: SuzieQ

Welcome, Welcome, Welcome

Check it out! Great stuff!!!!!

Back in the saddle again

How about those Pistons? Sorry Kobe and Shaq...have a nice day. You can see it in the eyes of the Pistons. They just wanted the championship a little more. What a great game.

Speaking of a great game. How about the fact that is has been a week since my last blog. so sorry. I will highlight the week prior:

Trip to CA

All my flights were screwed up due to weather. As you recall a huge storm front moved in and then moved in again over Michigan. My trip was to take me from Muskegon to Detroit then San Francisco. We were out on the run way when they announced that we would have to be re-routed thru South Bend. So we need more fuel. After we received more fuel, they announced the flight would be delayed due to weather. The delay lasted almost 3 1/2 hours. I was ready to drive to Grand Rapids and take another flight. After we arrived in Detroit (did I mention the Pistons won last night?), there was another storm. I sat in the airport for another 4 hours while the storm passed. Suck out loud. This give me much down time to think. This is usually a dangerous process. I reflected on career plans, ministry opportunities, family. I must just look like one of those guys who you can talk to because I never have a problem with people starting conversations with me. Except while I am in a public restroom. That is really weird. Anyway, I met two families in Detroit (Pistons rule!). One family was headed out to a vacation. The other had a recent death in the family and was headed to the funeral. It is interesting to me the dynamic of the conversations the would follow. The vacation family had not told their kids where they were going yet. Which, in fact, is awesome. The kids had no idea where they were heading. That was great. On the other coin, I saw God start to move with the other family. We talk at some length about the family member who died and tried to help process some feelings. We prayed. That was cool.

I have been recently challenged deeper by Deur's comments of "being the church". I know this is a process. It does not happened over night. But I do think we need to engage in the process. Embrace the journey. God is real and he is there to guide you down the path. He wants what is best for you. He is in relentless pursuit of you. Embrace the journey.

Work in CA

Well, things went well in CA. The commissioning and programming of the system was smooth. We will need to make one more trip out to finalize because this trip was premature. The project manager for the customer insisted on us being out this week. Apparently, he scheduled a training session for the customer at the end of last week. Unfortunately, the store does not open for another 4-5 weeks. Without the store setup, it is difficult to adjust the system - ie-volume levels. On an up note, the weather was awesome and I had a good time with the other person I was with from our company. And the Pistons won last night.

Arrived late Saturday. That was not cool. First, you are losing hours traveling west to east. Then there were flight issues. And it is a long flight. Not a good combination. Once again, a conversation was started with a guy next to me on the flight home. Another opportunity. We talked about each others lives and our reason for going to CA. He was returning to Canada from a wedding his niece just had. This opened up much conversation because he said, "I don't understand why people get married, anyway." There are several paths I could have took. I choose the one less traveled. He started to open up about a divorce he went thru, a family tore apart, relationships he had. The perspective was clearly a man broken by his own actions. As the conversation progressed, I was able to share own story and commented how God was there to get me thru. Wow. The conversation took a steep turn.

My mind races with possibilities. For me, it is not about always bringing up religion. It is important to be in the moment. As an audio professional, we look for those moments to highlight. A guitar solo, a vocalist solo. Those moments when an instrument needs to stand out. I call that "mixing for the moment". Paying attention to where the music is going to feel the solo that is about to happen. Then react. I think our relationship with God and others is the same. We need to pay attention to what people are trying to say. To watch the conversation and see where God is leading. Then react and be the church.

I better watch it.....I could preach a sermon.

Sunday Sunday Sunday

Ok. So I had a selfish desire. I receive a call from my daughter on Saturday that they were not leaving for their trip until Sunday. So I made arrangements to meet her on Sunday morning for breakfast. It was great to see her before she left. Since she would not be around for Father's day, she had a card and a gift for me. That was fun. We sat and talk; played cats cradle and made several "string" configurations. She is awesome and I really am enjoying watch her grow up.

Where I am at now?

This blog is getting way too long. Last night I met with some friends. Great time. Yesterday, I spent the entire day finding my desk and answering emails. And last night, the game. To the victors, the spoils.....

Tonight I am meeting with Pastor Dennis Jackson. Dennis is a great guy and an awesome leader. I have appreciated him on a professional, congregational and personal level. It is check in time for me and Dennis is a great one to check in with.

That's is. My fingers are tired from typing.

Congrats Matt and Heidi Furr on the birth of their new child. A shout out to Libby, my new niece! Rock on Libby!

Libby's uncle

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

I'm leaving on a jetplane.....

Yes it is true. I am headed to CA. So for the three of you that read this, I will not be back on line until the weekend.

I have to admit I am not happy about this trip. You see, Becca is leaving for (4) weeks on Saturday. This was my "catch up" week with her. The trip was suppose to be next week. But the customer is throwing fits about having training and commission this week. A training and commissioning session he set up without communicating with us. This is very frustrating. Anyway, Becca and I had a long talk about it and I am headed out this afternoon to spend time with her. It just sucks.

Other than that, things are smooth....................


Don't know when I'll be back again,

Monday, June 07, 2004

OK OK it has been a while

I realize it has been a while. I apologize. It is not as if I have not had anything going on. Here is the sum up.

Monday - Memorial Day - grill, grill, grill
Tuesday - sick day - massive headache action. I get those once in a while and it sucks beyond.
Wednesday - Back at the office. Try to un-bury my desk for all the stuff I did not get done the day before and of course pick up my daughter and have fun.
Thursday - serving - I spent the day at in muskegon helping set up for a benefit concert. Great guys to hang out with. IT WAS FUN! I understand the concert went off without a hitch - Thank you Jesus. Thursday evening spent with some good friends Becca and I had not seen in a while. Great time was had by all.
Friday - Spent the day in Chicago on business and returned in the same day. Tired, yes, but well worth it. Then Friday evening - went to see Harry Potter 3 with the whole clan. Good movie; interesting photography - they changed photography directors and you can tell.
Saturday - WOW. Had a typical Saturday morning. Becca is allowed to order me around - food, games whatever. Then we spent the afternoon at Johnson's house serving. Their Oldest son, Adam, had his graduation party. Lots of laughs; holy cow lots of food and lots of people. The time was well spent with them and we enjoyed ourselves. Especially the baked beans. Toot toot the magic fruit....... This evening ended of course with a fire.
Sunday - gathering day - Jeff spoke and the gooch lead worship. Shout out to Mike Morgan who is traveling the globe right now serving. Way to go Mike. Steve T. came down with so weird creepy crud; but did an excellent job leading the band and leading us in worship - inspite of the #2 keyboard player who will remain name less. Jeff did an awesome job. The journey that man has been with God is amazing. Thanks Jeff for a glimpse into your life.

So here I am again at the end of a blog. Wondering how the day going to end up. My daughter leaves this weekend for 4 weeks. I am happy she is taking the trip - because her mom can - but I will miss her bad while she is gone. I am sure blogging activity will be increase as I will be looking for things to do.

Well, need to get busy. My desk is bowing under the weight of stuff on top of it.


Sunday, May 30, 2004

Gathering day

Well, it happened this morning. What a great gathering time. The worship was great! And Steve D. was on and it will be hard to complain again.

This afternoon Becca & I played hard - games mostly. We were invited to the Johnson's house for some intentional time. And now, we are at Thompsons for a little life together.

We were just discussing how God is moving in my life. It is cool how direction in my life is falling into place. I am excited to see things come into focus. Thank you Jesus.

More on that later.

Well, nothing new on other fronts. Next couple of weeks are going to be busy, but manageable. Trip to California. Not looking forward to that. Don't get me wrong; I will do the trip. It is the fact I am away from my daughter and I don't like it.


Friday, May 28, 2004

3 day weekend

IT IS HERE!!!! Why is it we look forward to long weekends? Do we feel we are sticking it to the man? Is it like a "free" day? A get out of jail free card?

With all that said, I am really looking forward to the weekend. NOTHING PLANNED. Except GRILLING, having fun, maybe trip to beach (depending on weather). I purchase my state park sticker the other day. $24 bucks! Worth it for sure....

I am excited because some of the wrestling with God is paying off. I can see some clearer direction forming on the horizon. I AM EXCITED about that. More later.

It is pretty quiet at work today. Several people gone; makes it like a ghost town. But we will start dancing on the tables with loud music and singing this afternoon. And lets not forget the Tostitos and salsa.

Have a great and safe weekend!

Out like a light,

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Food for thought

How many Christians does it take to change a light bulb?
Charismatic : Only 1
Hands are already in the air.
Pentecostal : 10
One to change the bulb, and nine to pray against the spirit of darkness.
Presbyterians : None
Lights will go on and off at predestined times.
Roman Catholic : None
Candles only
Baptists : At least 15. One to change the light bulb, and three committees to approve the change and decide who brings the potato salad and fried chicken .
Episcopalians :3
One to call the electrician, one to mix the drinks and one to talk about how much better the old one was.
Mormons : 5
One man to change the bulb, and four wives to tell him how to do it.
Unitarians :
We choose not to make a statement either in favor of or against the need for a light bulb. However, if in your own journey you have found that light bulbs work for you, you are invited to write a poem or compose a modern dance about your light bulb for the next Sunday service, in which we will explore a number of light bulb traditions, including incandescent, fluorescent, 3-way, long-life and tinted, all of which are equally valid paths to luminescence.
Methodists : Undetermined
Whether your light is bright, dull, or completely out, you are loved. You can be a light bulb, turnip bulb, or tulip bulb. Bring a bulb of your choice to the Sunday lighting service and a covered dish to pass.
Nazarene : 6
One woman to replace the bulb while five men review church lighting policy.
Lutherans: None
Lutherans don't believe in change.
Amish :
What's a light bulb?

It's gonna be a great day

How much more positive can I be? It looked like the rain is holding off. I saw a glimpse of the sun. I must admit - I have a lot to do today and I am sure I am not going to get done.....

Yesterday went well. After of my delaying and stewing, it was a piece of cake. The team I met with was very positive and it was great to hear positive feedback. Deur and N8 were right - it is a positive experience to go thru.

Anyway, gotta go. Busy 8-5 and then meetings tonight. It will be a long day!


Sunday, May 23, 2004

and the rain came down

WOW. It is raining in Michigan. Can you believe it? I suppose it is a good thing. But enough! Thank you, Jesus.

Tomorrow will be spent with the 4th grade of class from GRIFFIN Elementary. We will be touring the capital and several others places. I get to head up a group of all girls. Conversation will not be a problem.

Well, it has been a great weekend. Lots of relaxing time with the daughter. That has been good. We have been walking and talking alot. Which is great.

Tuesday is a big day as I will be meeting with the WEST Michigan District board of the Wesleyan church. I have been seeking advise from several sources. All keep saying that I NEED to just be myself and all will be good. I can't wait. I plan to have fun with it.

Becca & I are at Thompson's house spending life together. And I am being rude by blogging and trying to keep up with conversation. Season finale for Alias tonight. I want to meet Jennifer G. some day.

Just rollin, rollin, rollin
Becca's dad

Saturday, May 22, 2004

Another Blogger added

Please welcome to our blogsphere - Zoomer! Enjoy the ride!

Friday, May 21, 2004

There are days ...................


check the link out above. There are days I really feel like that fish!

And this week has been that for me. I feel like I am trying hard; praying hard; reading serving worshiping....blah blah blah. And yet, God is quiet right now. It is totally ok that God is quiet; I mean after all He is the He is. Unfortunately my human nature, which does not look any further than now, gets frustrated. For those who know we,check out here. I am not a very patient person. I do not like to wait. I have a hard time at Christmas not telling my daughter about the gifts I bought her; and I already know what the gifts are!

Anyway, I am anticipating a good weekend. Tomorrow is a no commitment kind of day. Becca is done with soccer so we will probably chill out. Sunday will be the gathering, working on the brakes on my car and life group. Monday, I am going back to school. Elementary school that is. I am traveling with Becca's class to Lansing to see the state capital. I am driving separately (thank you Jesus) so I will not be part of the full commotion.

Well, I am having lunch today with some good friends. I enjoy their time because it is usually light and fun conversation that will turn challenging. What I mean is they know me well enough to ask hard questions. It is always good and we always have a great time together.

Well, tata for now.

Thursday, May 20, 2004

For the love....

I had the opportunity to go for a walk last night with my daughter. We went out to the north pier in Grand Haven and walked. It was a beautiful night. Slight breeze; great temperature. It was awesome. These times are always great for exercise; but more importantly talking with Becca. She has some great insights. I enjoy hearing about her day. I am constantly humbled when I see that "know your children's school" advertisement on tv. Stop the world - I want to get off.

What a crazy night? I am wrestling with God on some issues and I did not sleep well last night. So I am tired. That is not a good way to show up at work. Part of my job is being creative. It is hard when the sleep tank is low. Not to mention, it rained like a monsoon this morning. SO I sit at my desk, review my tasks for the day, tired and wet. Not a good combination.

Hey, I will stop whining for now.

Rain down, rain down on me....